Expectations and Frustrations...

I guess my expectations on people are really high.

I believe people would be like me and would be able to undersand what I am saying.
I keep believing in things this way, even though it has not happened for almost all the time.

Yes, yes, I now must stop believing in this.
People are not like me.
People don't think like I do and, most of all, they don't understand me.
and yes, I admit that not everyone issmart and I have seena lot of peoplebeing so stupid througout my life.

But for some reason, whenever I meet new people, I expect them to be like me.
And as time goes by, I feel upset that they don't understand me and shattered my expectations of them which were set so high.

An old friend of mine, I call him 아저씨, too, told me that I should learn to keep my expectations low.
I bet he noticed me always stayingaloneand meeting only a few friends if I ever go out. He said that people are not as educated as I am and even if they are, they are not as smart as I am.And ifI keep your expectations high, I will be the one isolated from the society.
But, he also said that, if I can talk to everyone in their respective level, I will be widely beloved and also respected. It's because they will first like me as I hang out with them, but since I would be providing more insightful opinions, my opinions would be respected and thus so will I be.

Well, as I visit poor neighborhoods due to my research, I always try to talk to people about this and that, play with their kids, but I always feel this barrier. I guess I am just acting as if I am dealing them in the level they are, and I also know that this thing would be a very brief meeting with them.

But then, again, as I said, this does not mean only with those poor and uneducated people. I doubt if people who have known me so long and who have been so close to me know what I am talking about when I don't say things directly, which I rarely do. Even on some nights ago, I was disappointed with one of my friends who have been so close to mebecause we had some misunderstanding.

I really have only a few people in mylife where I could avoid misunderstandings, and as I meet more people I get to treasure them more.

But life is funny though. I think I also met somebody who is very much like me and our conversations seem to click all the time. And we've only spent a few hours talking face to face overall, but I feel somehow really connected.

Also, it's amazing and very interesting that this person behaves somebody I know, whois very different from me. Haha, life is really funny.

However, with all my experiences like that, as my logic always defenses, I think I keeping expectations high is a very humane behavior although it is not realistic.
In that way, I am treating them equally although everyone is different. It's just that it goes with a pain of being isolated and frustrated with the others. After all, I believe that what one fool can do, so can another.

Yep, I am really hard-headed.