Just An Ordinary Being...

Whenever I feel that I am just another human being,
I have this surging sadness...

Those emotions,
Yes, those emotions...
They make me less of what I want to be...

Haha, what did I really want to be?
A wunderkind.

Now that I am already old,
And I know that I am not one,
And although I went through a hard time to change what I want with my life,
The fact that I am not and will never be something I've always wanted to be
Makes me so sad.

And, to think of those things helplessly at this time of the year in such situation I belong,
How stupid!