Lost People...

I do not want to define what I just did while taking a break from studying...

I ran through cyworld profiles, or so-called mini-hompages of my korean friends...

Well, most of them are long lost friends to me, sad to say. I do not mean to offend - although it won't be as much as you think because there is virtually and apparently no contact among us - but I have hard time remembering most of them.

Anyway, I still can contact some of my closest friends, but I just don't...

Oh yeah, I am just pathetic and mean... I don't think I was stalking... I was going through my friends' photos they posted for the public... But it feels just like that, somehow...

There are a few friends...well, actually only three, I think, friends I have on my MSN Messenger list... I do know email addresses of some, however, I just don't find myself sending emails or hinting a chat in MSN.

It's just sad, as some of my close friends here in the Philippines would like to say... and I know it is... It's just sad...

However, I do not feel the necessity of such commitment for connection to them either, I just feel something empty and it ends here. But, everyone who knows me knows that I do not use others in means to ends... Sigh...

Oh yes, only sighing I can do now...

The sun has risen already... I didn't sleep, and didn't study much despite of giving all my attention to this vocabulary book... Now, I am getting more and more perturbed... I should be preoccupied with my studies for GRE than anything right now... Sigh...

Oh yes, Sigh...