TOW I Am Preoccupied With The Blankness

I was awaken by call from my father.

He said that my grandmother passed away.

...

It has been expected for every family member, she has been extremely weak for past years...

She had been strong even with having paralysis almost twice in last twenty years. However she fell down once, hurted her hip some years ago, then she went really deep into an abyss.

Her vitality virtually and slowly disappeared. It finally came onto her, onto us.

However, despite how expected it was, it is still a shock to me I guess.

Since I have some solvings to do due Thursday, I have been struggling to solve for hours, but I can't. Maybe I will give a try after the sun sets today.

My parents are trying to find a way to go to Korea and return next week. There is no problem leaving, but there is no flight to return. Stupid Koreas are heading to enjoy summer in a tropical land.

Anyway, this time I cannot miss it. When my motherside grandmother passed away, I could not go to Korea because of stupid motherf+cking passport problem.

Plus, although I was close to both grandmothers, I literally lived my whole life in Korea with her. To tell the truth, I am her most loved grandchildren among twenty + @ of us.

Sigh... I do not know...