TOW the Love From My Milieu

Currently, my yahoo and msn messengers say "In Tears... After All, Love is All Around Me..."

I met my math blockmates today...
I was a little tired due to short sleep for days and late return to home for days...

It has been long since we gathered... Actually, we are hardly in contact these days, because everyone else aside from me is busy working and making living.

I honestly believed it would be an usual outing with dinner andwould endwith a couple of bottles of beeror a cup of coffee. Plus, since I have not sold my stuffs I want to sell, I am trying to keep control of my money...and I am really being selfish these days and thinking only about so many things about me and what I should do...

Some of them, I haven't seen since graduation...if I remeber correctly, they are Rachelle and Adriano...
It was really surprise to see that Cyrus had decided to come, who was always more of remoted and silent all the time...

Well, we did casual talks...we ordered our foods...
Suddenly, Rachelle and Ica left after ordering their foods...
and theyreturned a very long while later...
also, during that time, people sometimes exchanged their seats...

Stupid of me, I didn't notice... I didn't expect...and I don't think I deserve this...
Sigh...
They were preparing a gift for me...
It would be colder in San Francisco, so they bought a jacket for me...
[Rachelle and Ica left after ordering the food and checking mysize]
It has been really a pleasant surprise...
Haven't the card said "Super Snob Awardee," I might have cried...
(Why am I a super snob? I should ask soon...)
[They were exchanging seats to write on card without me knowing it]
Well, despite the fact that I don't like being pictured,
I took a lot of pictures with them with smiles...
I didn't care if my small eyes could not be shown or not,
I didn't want to look less happy than I was...

Still, stunned with the surprise, I really didn't react well throughout the meeting...
Just on the way home in the JV's car, I just thought that I should reacted better...

4 years I studied with them in the Ateneo...
It took me2 years to get close to most of them...
I hate the fact that it took that long...
I wish I got close to them sooner...
I wish I went out with them more often now...

Due to my temper, there were low points when it could have been avoided...
Manymemories were recalled and many regrets as well...
I could have been more eager to teach them on math subjects before the exam when we all studied together...
I could have bought them more drinks...hehe

Sigh...

Yesterday, I was with Jingjing for dinner as well.
Since she has been so speical to me througout my Manila days,
I wanted a separate outing with her...
Can't believe that I stayed so long so close with her,
who is really like my older sister,
who makes me happy all the time...
I've always wanted an older sister all the time since I was a kid,
and she became one...

Mardan, although I sometimes teased him for beig stingy and treated him badly because he is so understanding, he planned everything (with Rachelle) tonight... Haha, we became close only byour Junior years... Oh, his corny jokes...

Marvin, despite of not sleeping for two nights (and days), and despite of all the drinks we had last night, he still came for dinner... My philosophical and mathematical buddy for last yeaers in the Ateneo...

and JV, Ica, Cyrus, Rachelle, Adriano, and an applied-math-always-with-bs-math Regina,
and everyone else even who didn't come...

Well, these days... I feel the love from the milieu...
Man, I can just go cry now...
Even the mere existence of milieu for a person like me is so much,
and I do feel their love now...
It's...
It really is....