Recently, I was bothered greatly by worries that I might not be allowed to do my research in the Philippines.
I had sleeping troubles,
I could not tell my parents that I might not be able to go to the Philippines,
because they were counting the days...
I just kept telling them: "Oh, I don't know the date yet, because I have to prepare for my research proposal matter."
Well, I was cleared to go about two weeks ago...
I was so happy...
I truly wanted it, I couldn't do much, but I tried to make contacts in the Philippines as if it's not going to matter, and I just kept wishing for it, and I finally was cleared to go.
As I always say, if you truly want it, you will have it.
Because if you truly want it, then you will be doing everything you can within your power to make it happen, and I never underestimate one's power... especially not mine.
I was emailing here and there, talking to our school's director of the Philippine studies to know whether I was going to be cleared to go or not...
Even though it was due to some stupid rule, a rule is still a rule.
I think if it's "something,"and if you truly want it, you will have it...
Now, I doubtwhether that's the same case for a person.
Because it requires two people... Hope and wishes of two different beings...
Oh well...
Not the time to think of this, right?
Well, I will forget about this any time soon... I have a busy week ahead, and it's so easy to keep myself busy as May comes near... Hopefully, I wont' be bothered anymore... But, I still wish at some level... Well, all the time... Sigh, I am so pathetic...
But I like it... My will to follow my brain is strong. Yes... I trust my brain more than my heart. It has some tendency to make radical mistakes, and I hate them.
Although of course it's the strongest when they combine... Like they combined for the things I intend to do... Helping the poor...
