I love busy life.
Yes, I do spend a lot of time goofing around on my computer and recently on my Playstation3.
(I spend a significant amount of time on those.)
But for me, those are just a kinda busy time as I put my mind into something - entertainment and relaxation.
I not only welcome entertainments, but I also welcome busy life with work and studies.
Past 2 weeks, I had no time for other things than work.
There were just some unusual pressure to finish things ASAP especially since BL was about to leave the country and DQ was occupied on some big reports.
Also, probably a slow August work schedule made me a stranger to the pressure.
So, I left work past 7 PM everyday for 2 weeks except last Friday.
...and I was happy (with work not leaving early on last Friday).
I was exhausted when I got home, too exhausted that I did not have energy to concentrate on studying - which I spent on goofing around instead... You know, to concentrate on something, a certain level of energy is required.
I was goofing around but I didn't have time and energy to concentrate on writing something either. Nor I had energy enough to watch some serious drama movies.
I was preoccupied with work issues even when I was driving and at home... Sometimes, I get weird cases that are just like a dirty problem solving case.
Not even having time to respond to emails in a timely manner has not happened to me often, but it was like that last two weeks. Except some emails to a couple of people, I didn't reply to emails or IM with my friends as often.
In fact, I was offline on IM at work for several days that JSO worried if something happened to me - because even when I am at work, even if I can't really IM, I usually stay online. IC also wondered because we haven't IM so long. Those don't really happen because I usually check how my peers are doing regularly - as small as my social topograph is, I try to keep them tight and I enjoy those.
So I was busy but I was happy.
Mainly because I enjoy what I do, but also I enjoy the feeling of getting things done.
I hate lying around doing nothing but thinking random thoughts.
If I watch TV or something, then I am being entertained. Random thoughts are just a total waste of time.
Many people also wonder why I am going for so many several financial licenses that may actually overlap one another.
Honestly, I don't know how I will use all of them.
But I really want to get things done in my hands.
That's why I enjoyed schools, that's why I love my job where I can feel the sense of getting things done with my own hands - which is very true with every report draft I pass on to BL and DQ.
Now that I opted out of school, I am keeping myself to be productive at home.
I do goof around a lot of time, but I know how to manage to be productive.
I also beat myself up these days for goofing around too much on computers and stuff, and try to motivate myself more.
I know soon, it's going to happen when I am totally on the vibe to be productive... and when that happens, I would be the most efficient and productive person in the world. I know what I can do.
This week for the most of days, I will be alone at work in doing 409A cases. Tomorrow would be a hectic day, but I will manage. I know I will keep myself busy again because I enjoyed for the last couple of weeks.
Am I a workaholic? I think I am just being responsible... Eh.
