Hmm... Although I am not giving all the best I can for the result I want in the GRE, which I might take in a few months, I do have some plans...
I don't think I can plan further of my life until the part when I might be entering a graduate school rather than the current one - the mathematics graduate studies in the Ateneo de Manila University.
Not that I find it shameful to study in the Ateneo de Manila University again as a graduate student, but, I do have idea that this is not for my best... And some people, including my parents think that this is a hopeless track of my life...
And, I do feel that all thier backtalks finally influence and urge me to go elsewhere... where it seems pretty clear that they do not know...
However, I do plan - and hope - that with a good result in the GRE, I want to find myself to study the Asian studies, or the linguistics, which I think I might do better and have interests...
Doing mathematics has been a heartbreaking experience... 
Indeed, it was...
I do hope that I can do better in the mathematics, too... However, I think it might be too difficult to attain what I want, which is not really something concrete...
However, it is such a pity that I am no longer confident about what I hoped myself to be when I grow up...
