I like to listen to sad songs.
I like to listen to angry raps - and it sucks that gangsta raps are so rare these days.
(I like various kinds of music, so those two are not exclusive. The only kinda music I have hard time accepting is electronic, and I am even getting used to electronic through electro-hop.)
I think I like sad and angry songs because through them I can channel negativity in me and keep myself at peace.
Sure, happy songs are nice.
But when do I really feel happy? Happiness happens only rarely.
It also matters that happy songs are also often love songs, which don't really apply to my current state of being.
In addition, I am already dreamy enough and there is no need to be any more dreamy.
Sad songs, these I can relate to.
Sad songs can reach to me easier.
Maybe I am just always a little more depressed, but I have been trying to be jolly - with all the jokes and all - especially around people.
It's not trying to be somebody I am not; it's just me thinking there is no need to involve others in my state of being when it's not all happiness, and no reason to keep myself depressed while not being too dreamy.
This song was in my head all day today for some reason, haven't thought about this song for a long time. (This song was actually my ringtone for a significant amount of time until last year Christmas):
