When I decided to do one year MS Math a couple of years ago,
I was simply lost what to do.
I just wanted to keep myself in a familiar world and meditate more.
That's where my one year off is coming from.
(That's where some people argue onl y people who don't know what to do go to graduate schools, I guess.)
But, when I got a chance to change my field to economics,
I suddenly felt it was something I should do,
and something was pushing my back towards it.
But now, I am stuck again.
Probably, I will take one year off, or probably I will end up this new road that many others take it all-so normally.
I don't have that much drive I had when I first started doing economics.
Apparently, everywhere it's the same.
Good standing, good scores don't mean anything... I have an excellent standing...
Good papers mean nothing much... I have a pretty good paper for a Master's...
What matters is connections....
Something I think I am not that particularly bad, but still pretty bad.
I guess I need a time off a little, and go to my familiar world.
But I don't have that time, and I won't be having it for some time from now on.
For some reason, when I go to the number theory, combinatorics, and abstract algebra section in library, I could calm down a little.
I guess I need to stop by a little.
My heart could beat somewhat peacefully then.
Going to the Philippines helped me to gain 4 more years compare to my peers in Korea...
Well, 4 more years for guys, and 2 more years for girls.
I have seem to managed that advantage well, but already used up 1 year.
Now, I might have to use another 1 year... After that, there is practically nothing advantageous, at least time-wise...
Time to meditate to see things clearly....
For now, I know I am about to something new yet again.
As I would like to say,
it's like the time when you play an arcade game,
"Credit 1, Press Start To Begin"
