It's only beginning of a semester,
and honestly, there aren't much things to do.
But I am constantly in urge of finishing things as early as possible,
to make up some time for whatever uncertainty it may come.
Things like a breakdown in the logical flow of my thesis or that of my econometric models.
Moreover, I am pretty sure my plan of two papers by the time of graduation is spoiled,
It's just that my concentration level is not that dispersed enough...
With conference and all, I cannot say I am more nervous.
With having additional problem with my work as a TA,
I just am so worried at some point thing might turn around and start to go wrong.
Maybe too much euphoria, I do not know.
But certainly, I am not used to whatever I am going through,
and maybe I just need some time to get used to,
but considering how things are going around, I cannot ask for that "time".
I just want to do all the things as soon as possible so that I will have some time to breathe. What worries me and scares me is that this is only 2nd week of the semester,
and what if things go really bad with more workloads coming up...
Probably, this semester might not go as pretty as I thought...
I am already dropping a class, adding it just to drop again...
So much for my "face"...
Well... probably if I am so busy, then I won't have time for this...
Or I would burst...
But, it's definitely nothing about present.
I must be really happy with my present...
It's the future that scares me again, as it always has been...
Time to focus, get things done one by one, and then maybe I can see which peak I am going to.
