I doubt how much help I will be getting from doing what I am doing now...
That is, naming such deed as "Lexicon Studies"...
It might sound ridiculous, as it is sometimes to me 
, however, I do try hard to get serious on what I am doing, and I wish to have a good result in the end, not mainly ue to my intelligence (as a human being), but due to my endeavor...
I never achived something out of my endeavor. I hightly was leaned on my ability that I had since I was born, which was never cultivated... It is amazing how much I achived so far, however, I do not get satisfied of the "I"...
I am craving more and better results in my life - as every person in early twenties would feel...
Now, I wish to achive something from my endeavor, and with GRE test to come up in a few months, I wish to have some result. I now know that such test is not based on one's skill but one's hardship...
Now, I say like this, but it will come as it will be...
